Let's don't talk about how prof.O . =(
Yes we like Lums, everything was nice.
I liked how they had AC everywhere, how the campus was clean, how people don't stare at us...etc.
I'm tired. Bye
2010年4月13日 星期二
Club Thingie
So I guess Palak kinda knew santaji was coming when his message came in like ‘I won’t be free till 5.’
Murtaza was asking why earthwatch had to get approval from the advisor in every decision, isn’t it supposed to be a student environmental club?
I said yes. But this is sadly how things work here.
Palak walked me to the gate, met fancy santaji with nice glasses.
(Okay, I stopped to text for 15 minutes, yes, with my phone that doesn’t work. Now I can’t remember what I was about to say. Messages about setting up a meeting for OCTP, about wrapping the gift, about Earthwatch, about getting a certificate for participation, about M’s grumpy day, about my crappy phone, about me being purple and not yellow….etc)
Palak walked me there, met fancy santaji with nice glasses. Santaji asked palak whether he’d like to join us, and Palak said no he’s not invited. Standing outside the car, I actually didn’t have a diplomatic answer. I knew Palak would be fine with that. And I appreciated Palak for being my sister in everything, including shopping for Helen’s birthday gift. I cherish the trust, so yes, I don’t have any particular answer why I didn’t want Palak to join us. I guess I am bossy and possessive.
I said to santaji ‘You own me this! It’s okay, he’s fine with that. You don’t even know palak, he’s fine. I spend hours with him every day.’ I guess I wanted to focus on santaji, listen to him, and I don’t want to be studied by another friend.
Well, I love friends, I’m a people person. I guess Rene is right in one sense that I don’t treat santaji like how I treat palak. I wouldn’t say it’s not equally nice, it is just different.
I hope to be at ease with people from all walks of life, from all back ground. But the truth is, I think I am a serious happy person. I am practical as well as an idealist. I can act, I know how to react.
Come on, let’s face it. I am a Taiwanese girl, I grew up with books, limited TV time (and then NO TV at all), talents classes. I had always been a popular person among my peers. I have attended so many performances and competitions. I have had amazing friends for my frame of reference. So, the cindy you know, it’s me of course. But there’s also some parts of me that I am not showing.
You know, when I go back to Taiwan in the summer. I will have to ‘package’ myself in front of those Taiwanese friends too.
I love you all, but sometimes I feel when I am with santaji, I am free to be the one cindy that’s not been found in Pakistan. I get to be thinking like the way I am familiar with, I get to be a Taiwanese.
I guess there are parts of you that I don’t understand, and believe me, I’d like to understand.
Santaji asked me why Pakistan? I gave him the truest answer that I don’t think many people know. And I guess, yes, palak is right, I have decided to make santaji my friend. I am like giving him the truest side of me, and I guess I am doing that because I feel secured. And yes I do think that I am imposing myself on him. I guess I’m emotionally occupied. I don’t want that. I want to be happy.
I guess santaji really isn’t as expressive as I thought he’d be, I was a bit pissed because his messages are composed by 90% of lol and 70% of hahahahaha. I asked for happy stories, there were only few.
If I were to tell the latest happy stories, I’d say how Palak came to Mini Market and Main Market with me, or how Prof.O lent me his phone for an hour unlimited messages, or how ZeeB let me present later, or how Bilal let me take the quiz later on Tuesday. And it was real sweet that santaji asked for keeping the ‘information’ I gave him to make balancesheet.
There are things that I consider that ‘I can be’ happy (and thankful) about. Yes I’m saying it it’s more of a habit of deciding whether to be happy, since life is usually sad.
I think however I am spoiled in a way that palak is so ‘obedient and friendly’ :P
Well, I should stop writing cuz it’s getting messy and many things don’t even make sense. I am really happy that I finally got to meet santaji. I finally had a time to be myself. I finally got to hear the stories. It’s like finally finally.
And I laughed real hard today when prof, O questioned my why didn’t I have internet :P
And I really appreciate the fact that all of my friends are trying to appreciate each other. You guys are doing a better job than I am.
Murtaza was asking why earthwatch had to get approval from the advisor in every decision, isn’t it supposed to be a student environmental club?
I said yes. But this is sadly how things work here.
Palak walked me to the gate, met fancy santaji with nice glasses.
(Okay, I stopped to text for 15 minutes, yes, with my phone that doesn’t work. Now I can’t remember what I was about to say. Messages about setting up a meeting for OCTP, about wrapping the gift, about Earthwatch, about getting a certificate for participation, about M’s grumpy day, about my crappy phone, about me being purple and not yellow….etc)
Palak walked me there, met fancy santaji with nice glasses. Santaji asked palak whether he’d like to join us, and Palak said no he’s not invited. Standing outside the car, I actually didn’t have a diplomatic answer. I knew Palak would be fine with that. And I appreciated Palak for being my sister in everything, including shopping for Helen’s birthday gift. I cherish the trust, so yes, I don’t have any particular answer why I didn’t want Palak to join us. I guess I am bossy and possessive.
I said to santaji ‘You own me this! It’s okay, he’s fine with that. You don’t even know palak, he’s fine. I spend hours with him every day.’ I guess I wanted to focus on santaji, listen to him, and I don’t want to be studied by another friend.
Well, I love friends, I’m a people person. I guess Rene is right in one sense that I don’t treat santaji like how I treat palak. I wouldn’t say it’s not equally nice, it is just different.
I hope to be at ease with people from all walks of life, from all back ground. But the truth is, I think I am a serious happy person. I am practical as well as an idealist. I can act, I know how to react.
Come on, let’s face it. I am a Taiwanese girl, I grew up with books, limited TV time (and then NO TV at all), talents classes. I had always been a popular person among my peers. I have attended so many performances and competitions. I have had amazing friends for my frame of reference. So, the cindy you know, it’s me of course. But there’s also some parts of me that I am not showing.
You know, when I go back to Taiwan in the summer. I will have to ‘package’ myself in front of those Taiwanese friends too.
I love you all, but sometimes I feel when I am with santaji, I am free to be the one cindy that’s not been found in Pakistan. I get to be thinking like the way I am familiar with, I get to be a Taiwanese.
I guess there are parts of you that I don’t understand, and believe me, I’d like to understand.
Santaji asked me why Pakistan? I gave him the truest answer that I don’t think many people know. And I guess, yes, palak is right, I have decided to make santaji my friend. I am like giving him the truest side of me, and I guess I am doing that because I feel secured. And yes I do think that I am imposing myself on him. I guess I’m emotionally occupied. I don’t want that. I want to be happy.
I guess santaji really isn’t as expressive as I thought he’d be, I was a bit pissed because his messages are composed by 90% of lol and 70% of hahahahaha. I asked for happy stories, there were only few.
If I were to tell the latest happy stories, I’d say how Palak came to Mini Market and Main Market with me, or how Prof.O lent me his phone for an hour unlimited messages, or how ZeeB let me present later, or how Bilal let me take the quiz later on Tuesday. And it was real sweet that santaji asked for keeping the ‘information’ I gave him to make balancesheet.
There are things that I consider that ‘I can be’ happy (and thankful) about. Yes I’m saying it it’s more of a habit of deciding whether to be happy, since life is usually sad.
I think however I am spoiled in a way that palak is so ‘obedient and friendly’ :P
Well, I should stop writing cuz it’s getting messy and many things don’t even make sense. I am really happy that I finally got to meet santaji. I finally had a time to be myself. I finally got to hear the stories. It’s like finally finally.
And I laughed real hard today when prof, O questioned my why didn’t I have internet :P
And I really appreciate the fact that all of my friends are trying to appreciate each other. You guys are doing a better job than I am.
So my grumpy day
Monday. April 12th
Well I think it’s always when I act like a kid. I am grumpy when things don’t happen as planned, and no matter how I try to be ‘non-chalant’, I just act the total opposite way.
I worry so much in a sense that even mom says ‘why don’t you just let things happen?’
So I didn’t feel like going to MCOM class today. I am glad that palak said ‘let’s go to class’ twice or maybe 3 times today. And he has learned to be quiet when I am mad at something. He said that to Helen that ‘Don’t worry, yellow is pissed at me everyday’
I seriously need to call a ‘I’m sorry’ meeting, I really am but I just can’t help it.
I need my space. I don’t want my emotions to be messed up.
I don’t want to feel upset when someone couldn’t sneak out from his office to have coffee with me.
I don’t want to calculate how many days have passed since somebody has spend how many minutes last time we met.
It’s all so tiring.
The first thing is, yes, palak is with me daily. I should cherish people who are around me.
The second thing is, if I have so much time then why don’t I spend it on something else or someone else?
I don’t want to be grumpy. I want to be a happy yellow pirate.
So good-bye my grumpy day.
And to answer everyone’s question, no, I’m not going out with anyone until somebody finds me a hot European or Canadian. Thank you very much.
And to answer Helen’s question, I guess I just feel a lot more myself when santaji is around. You said the non-swearing you isn’t quite you, so I guess the independent strong pirate isn’t always me. I guess I like to be dependent when there is someone stronger around.
And we are having EarthWatch meeting at 4 daily! Let’s leave no regrets!
Congrats for L and S to be the new presidents!!
Well I think it’s always when I act like a kid. I am grumpy when things don’t happen as planned, and no matter how I try to be ‘non-chalant’, I just act the total opposite way.
I worry so much in a sense that even mom says ‘why don’t you just let things happen?’
So I didn’t feel like going to MCOM class today. I am glad that palak said ‘let’s go to class’ twice or maybe 3 times today. And he has learned to be quiet when I am mad at something. He said that to Helen that ‘Don’t worry, yellow is pissed at me everyday’
I seriously need to call a ‘I’m sorry’ meeting, I really am but I just can’t help it.
I need my space. I don’t want my emotions to be messed up.
I don’t want to feel upset when someone couldn’t sneak out from his office to have coffee with me.
I don’t want to calculate how many days have passed since somebody has spend how many minutes last time we met.
It’s all so tiring.
The first thing is, yes, palak is with me daily. I should cherish people who are around me.
The second thing is, if I have so much time then why don’t I spend it on something else or someone else?
I don’t want to be grumpy. I want to be a happy yellow pirate.
So good-bye my grumpy day.
And to answer everyone’s question, no, I’m not going out with anyone until somebody finds me a hot European or Canadian. Thank you very much.
And to answer Helen’s question, I guess I just feel a lot more myself when santaji is around. You said the non-swearing you isn’t quite you, so I guess the independent strong pirate isn’t always me. I guess I like to be dependent when there is someone stronger around.
And we are having EarthWatch meeting at 4 daily! Let’s leave no regrets!
Congrats for L and S to be the new presidents!!
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