So my grumpy day

Monday. April 12th
Well I think it’s always when I act like a kid. I am grumpy when things don’t happen as planned, and no matter how I try to be ‘non-chalant’, I just act the total opposite way.
I worry so much in a sense that even mom says ‘why don’t you just let things happen?’
So I didn’t feel like going to MCOM class today. I am glad that palak said ‘let’s go to class’ twice or maybe 3 times today. And he has learned to be quiet when I am mad at something. He said that to Helen that ‘Don’t worry, yellow is pissed at me everyday’
I seriously need to call a ‘I’m sorry’ meeting, I really am but I just can’t help it.


I need my space. I don’t want my emotions to be messed up.

I don’t want to feel upset when someone couldn’t sneak out from his office to have coffee with me.
I don’t want to calculate how many days have passed since somebody has spend how many minutes last time we met.
It’s all so tiring.


The first thing is, yes, palak is with me daily. I should cherish people who are around me.
The second thing is, if I have so much time then why don’t I spend it on something else or someone else?

I don’t want to be grumpy. I want to be a happy yellow pirate.

So good-bye my grumpy day.


And to answer everyone’s question, no, I’m not going out with anyone until somebody finds me a hot European or Canadian. Thank you very much.


And to answer Helen’s question, I guess I just feel a lot more myself when santaji is around. You said the non-swearing you isn’t quite you, so I guess the independent strong pirate isn’t always me. I guess I like to be dependent when there is someone stronger around.



And we are having EarthWatch meeting at 4 daily! Let’s leave no regrets!
Congrats for L and S to be the new presidents!! 